#feeling demotivated

[customaccessmemory]

[acid-ixx]

mild spoilers for chapter six for my series again &. again, but i really feel the need to ramble about this, and i'd love to hear anybody's opinion on this hehe.

as i write outline chapter six (and write for chapter five), i'd like to say i couldn't wait to write the reader's face reveal in bruce's perspective. and it's not just angst, for me, this plays a very pivotal turn for the series— because bruce will spiral to insanity.

to never once see a single portrait of your second youngest child, whose presence has long been erased from the manor, not a single image, nor trace of you is sickening to the heart, even if he scours through the internet day and night for a single memoir of you, nothing— but to find your portrait in alfred's living quarters and seeing you for the first time in forever? graduating a milestone no less?

god, he's in for a ride just analyzing every aspect of your physical appearance.

the color of your eyes, the shape of your nose, the quip of your mouth, the fat in your cheeks; even the length of your lashes! god, does he brand it into the deepest parts of his mind to never forget you anymore. his pearl, his treasure.

the longer he stares, the more he notices and gazes even more, obsessive as he stands lonesome in the room with every bone in his body locking up, his eyes unable to look away from the portrait that showcases his baby child.

and there, there it is that he concludes a detail so small it's unrecognizable for someone who's seen it for his entire life; yet it's all the same triggered deranged emotions deep within him.

— you don't just share him and your mother's traits, no, your smile is also reminiscent of his mother's.

martha wayne, who'd died in his arms, laying in a pool of her blood with a bullet grazed deep inside her body. his loving mother, who caressed his face whenever he'd cry from his nightmares, who'd shown him motherly love that until now he still craves.

she died with her pearl necklace that once decorated her porcelain neck spilling to the ground and stained with crimson.

you wore pearl earrings on your graduation.

the thought alone is enough for him to just snap.

this? this is the child that he's been neglecting far too long? who shares the same, loving expression of his mother's? his child? not even a single memory could be conjured with you but fantasies now do. if your happiest moments were within the picture frame that he holds with shivering fingers at present; could your smile be any wider if you'd be with him?

how come he never once noticed? why is bruce always destined to fail left and right? why, just why is he brimming with jealousy for all the people who must've seen your smile before him, and contempt for himself that he was never there to pick you up from the police station beforehand?

bruce isn't a heckler for favoritism, but a darker part of him is motivated to take you away from wherever you are, and to never let anybody else witness his beautiful, little treasure.

he's gotham's knight, first and foremost. but he's a father, too, with goals to protect his children just like a father should.

and the things he'd do for you, his child, now? anything.

if it means he has to see that smile, then he'll turn the world upside-down.

he has to protect your smile.

[mar1omar1a]

Pearl with leopard print tentacles from Twitter (I'm more active there lol)

[an-j8]

Keefe bieber

[forgettable-au]

What was your inspiration for the story? Where did you learn about the theory to begin with?

I'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE, BUT SOME OF YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW

BUT JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW

IT ALL STARTED HERE:

I don't like taking credit for the Papyrus is Gaster concept because

I DID NOT COME UP WITH IT, I FOUND OUT ABOUT THIS THEORY BECAUSE OF THIS COMIC

WHICH I STILL LOVE VERY MUCH

It changed my brain chemistry I think

I was just watching Undertale comic dubs as normal and I stumbled upon this one

I was a little confused because... why does Gaster look so much like Papyrus?? AND THEN I REALIZED

AND FOR SOME REASON I GOT OBSESSED WITH THE IDEA

Only to find out the comic was abandoned...It was rough...

So, I started to develop my own AU using that concept!

I am going in a VERY different direction with my comic but it is still pretty clear that I took inspiration from this comic

The IKTIKN comic belongs to linssins! If it wasn't for that comic I wouldn't have found out about this theory, so I will never stop mentioning it

[north-noire]

I don't have much of new art to show you guys, so have some old traditional concept artworks for my AU, Hidden Hands I have lying around in my gallery (these were made months ago). Just a taste of what's to come, mayhaps? :) We'll see.

[caramellles]

it will be their core childhood memory.

[aireezerb]

TW FOR NEEDLE

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Through the eye of the needle

it’s easier for me

to get closer to heaven than

to ever feel whole again…””

I don’t really

like this one honestly

[verkomy]

impostor syndrome has been really kicking my ass lately and it’s such a tiring feeling in the long run

[yali-the-sloth]

If someone told me last November that a year from then I’d be procrastinating doing anything BUT continuing my playthrough of the newly released dragon age game I’d call them crazy. I’m extremely tolerable to bullshit. The amount of objectively bad media I am able to enjoy is really high. I have been willing to forgive BioWare for a lot of bad game dev decisions. But not for the bad writing. So here we are.

I have not opened the game in a week now. Something broke in me when after 50 hours I finally reached act 2. So many people said it’s supposed to get better starting from that point. But I’m sorry, what exactly got better? Why is the story suddenly just ‘go do your companion quests!’? Where’s the freaking plot???

I can’t get rid of the feeling as if the game has been chopped into pieces at the last minute, rearranged by throwing out like 3/4 of the writing bits and then hastily sewn together.

[kkitsunesama]

fukaflower as argenthill cuz i think they are lowkey same vibes😳 + early halloween costumes? hhh

[exhausted-undead]

hmm. he's a sickly guy and she's a girl with self esteem issues - what could go wrong (too much) (someone get sky a tissue)

also viktor my love I figured out your face and im so proud (I'm evolving somewhat)

[lemongogo]

[wolfsbane-if]

Did you ever think about using AIs like GPT, Claude, Gemini (all free) to help you in writing your book? They could help you in writing a scene, for example.

No, never. And I never will.

Even if I could somehow guarantee the training data used by the program was sourced ethically, the whole point of writing is that I'm telling my story. I may be taking forever to finish it, but I can at least stand by the fact that this is wholly my work and every element has been carefully crafted with artistic vision and intent - something computers lack. I think that to do otherwise would be a disservice to both myself and the overall work.

[ipxakachi]

Guilty Challenge but he also got stuck

[ganondoodle]

i feel so silly (derogatory) barely doing a shitty doodle a day while others just .. make entire comics in the same time

not as in wishing them ill, i just , god, i wish that was me lol